I was going to title this blog “Inbox – 215” but I think that gives it a negative conotation and this is anything but a negative post.
Yesterday two friends and I exchanged 215 email throughout the day. There must have been 20 random topics but, it kept us entertained and made the day go by faster than normal.
During my drive home I was thinking about what a ridiculous number of emails that was. I don’t think I’ve exchanged 215 emails with anyone…let alone in one day. I don’t know if I’ve ever had that much to talk about before or that I even wanted to email anyone that much. Anyway…thinking about this made me reflect on the past few years and I realized something very important.
Three Years Ago
Three years ago this week I was in the midst of ending a horrible relationship. I won’t go into the sorrid details but it was a toxic relationship that lasted for two years and was about a year and a half too long. For the past two years I’ve celebrated the day it ended as my own “Independence Day.” It was the celebration of having my life back and being able to breath again. This year…I simply forgot.
For the past three years, I’ve had to rebuild my life. My relationship with one person took a toll on my relationships with many people. It took a toll on my finances, on my self-esteem and on my sanity. For three years, I have worked tirelessly to right the wrongs that were done. Most of all I’ve worked to rebuild myself to someone that I was proud of again. Today, I finally realized that I’ve completed that goal.
What 215 Emails Have To Do With It…
While thinking about the emails and the events of the past few months, I couldn’t help but think how absolutely blessed I am to have so many amazing people in my life. Three years ago I walked away from a relationship with one friend and my dog. Today I still have that one friend and my dog but I can add at least 15 more friends to that list. Three years ago, I felt alone and like the shell of a person. Today, I feel full and happy and complete thanks to the friendships that I have.
This year, I forgot my anniversary because it wasn’t necessary anymore. I don’t need to celebarate being me becaue I’m happy with me and can celebrate it every day. That has everything to do with the people that have come into my life and that I am surrounded by every day. I am proud of the person that I am and can say that I am a good person because I have good friends that make me that way.
Each and every friend that has come into my life over the past three years has helped bring me to this point. You have all added something to my life…something that I carry with me every day. Whether you know it or not, you have all helped me become a whole person again, to realize my worth and make me feel good about being me again. And for that, I thank you.
I’ll leave you with this…on the bulletin board above my desk I have a piece of paper that says
Gli amici sono la famiglia si sceglie
which means “Friends are the family you choose.” I have chosen a wonderful family and thank you for choosing me.