Thankful

Last week I was talking to one of my very best friends about what is going on with our lives and our families and life in general. The past two weeks had kind of sucked for me and both of our families. No major tragedies; just a couple stabs. As each of us made a complaint, the other one would say “at least you had/could/are/etc.” reminding each other that it could be much worse. In reality, it’s been a really good year for me (and her too, I think) and I have a lot that I am thankful for – some good and some making the bad good. Here’s what I am thankful for so far this year in no particular order:

  1. My job: I am so thankful for my job for many reasons. First, because I have one when so many people do not. It’s tough out there and I managed to find a new job in a bad economy with tons of other people competing for the spot. I’m crazy luck just for that. Second, because it allowed me to leave a job that made me beyond miserable and to join a team of genuinely nice, friendly and non-dramatic people. Third, because it pays me a significant amount more than my last job. Not to say that money is everything or that I’m rolling in dough now (because I’m definitely not) but, for other reasons that I’ll get to next. And finally because it’s providing me with a great opportunity to learn and grow as I work.
  2. I can donate to charities: Okay, I understand that this one may sound ridiculous but, hear me out. Remember what I said about my new job paying me more. This is one of the biggest benefits of that salary (beyond being able to live with a little bit of comfort). When people ask you to donate to their walk fund for whatever charity or when everyone puts in money to sponsor a family around the holidays, they always say that even $1 helps. That’s very true but, it’s nice to be able to give more. Since I started my new job I’ve been able to donate to my mom’s walk fund for the Alzheimer’s Association of Northeastern New York and to my friend’s walk fund for Making Strides Against Breast Cancer. I was able to buy a little extra for the two families the hotel sponsored for Thanksgiving. And I’ll be able to make some contributions to my favorite charities this holiday season and buy some extra toys for Toys for Tots. I am thankful that I can help make a little more of a difference this year.
  3. My parents: I am always thankful for my parents. They’re amazing people who made my life pretty damn easy and put up with my shit when I was making their life pretty damn hard. That’s a whole ‘nother type of thankful right there (Thanks for letting me live, Mom & Dad. I can think of more than one time I would have killed me.) But, the reason that I’m especially thankful for them this year is because of who they are. 2012 has not been their year at all. And this is after the past couple years haven’t been so great either. I won’t go into their personal details but, I am thankful for the strength that they have shown and continue to show through it all. I’m hoping 2013 is the year that they get to finally see the light at the end of a very long, dark tunnel.
  4. My fianceYeah…I have one of those and in April, I’ll have a husband. And, I’m ridiculously thankful for him. Not only can he put up with me and my crazies and love me in spite of them but, he’s also helped me become a better person.
  5. My dog: Emma has been my companion for almost seven years. She is a crazy bundle of joy. No matter what has happened in my life or where I’ve gone, she’s been there. She may not be the brightest bulb but, she is the most loving.
  6. My family, My friends and Everyone who doesn’t like me so much: Because they are the people that help shape your personality and your life. Without all of them, I wouldn’t be who I am or where I am today.

And, while that’s the end of my list, there is so much more to be thankful for every day.

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Onward

The sun has set on a chapter of my life and it’s time for me to move on.  The bricks were laid over the last few months and this weekend I sealed them up.

I am officially living at home with my parents until probably August.  I need a little bit of time to find a new apartment that I like, can afford and am comfortable with…plus they have to accept Emma (my 4 year old Maltepoo).

What happened this weekend was me moving on with my life and leaving (what had become) a bad situation behind.  My life is absolutely wonderful right now but, there was just one thing that was adding negativity to it.  That’s done now and I couldn’t be happier.

There’s a lot more to the story so stay tuned for a full update this week.

In other news…

I took an awesome two day trip to Boston this weekend.  There are some funny stories, so watch for those to be posted, too.

I have some changes I want to make to the blog so we’ll see how that goes.  Don’t hold your breath on that, though. 🙂

Thanks to everyone for all their help and support.  My friends mean a lot to me and I’m so happy to have you all in my life.  Thank you.

La Bella Vita

I was going to title this blog “Inbox – 215” but I think that gives it a negative conotation and this is anything but a negative post.

Yesterday two friends and I exchanged 215 email throughout the day.  There must have been 20 random topics but, it kept us entertained and made the day go by faster than normal.

During my drive home I was thinking about what a ridiculous number of emails that was.  I don’t think I’ve exchanged 215 emails with anyone…let alone in one day.  I don’t know if I’ve ever had that much to talk about before or that I even wanted to email anyone that much.  Anyway…thinking about this made me reflect on the past few years and I realized something very important.

Three Years Ago

Three years ago this week I was in the midst of ending a horrible relationship.  I won’t go into the sorrid details but it was a toxic relationship that lasted for two years and was about a year and a half too long.  For the past two years I’ve celebrated the day it ended as my own “Independence Day.”  It was the celebration of having my life back and being able to breath again.  This year…I simply forgot.

For the past three years, I’ve had to rebuild my life.  My relationship with one person took a toll on my relationships with many people.  It took a toll on my finances, on my self-esteem and on my sanity.  For three years, I have worked tirelessly to right the wrongs that were done.  Most of all I’ve worked to rebuild myself to someone that I was proud of again.  Today, I finally realized that I’ve completed that goal.

What 215 Emails Have To Do With It…

While thinking about the emails and the events of the past few months, I couldn’t help but think how absolutely blessed I am to have so many amazing people in my life.  Three years ago I walked away from a relationship with one friend and my dog.  Today I still have that one friend and my dog but I can add at least 15 more friends to that list.  Three years ago, I felt alone and like the shell of a person.  Today, I feel full and happy and complete thanks to the friendships that I have.

This year, I forgot my anniversary because it wasn’t necessary anymore.  I don’t need to celebarate being me becaue I’m happy with me and can celebrate it every day. That has everything to do with the people that have come into my life and that I am surrounded by every day.  I am proud of the person that I am and can say that I am a good person because I have good friends that make me that way.

Each and every friend that has come into my life over the past three years has helped bring me to this point.  You have all added something to my life…something that I carry with me every day.  Whether you know it or not, you have all helped me become a whole person again, to realize my worth and make me feel good about being me again.  And for that, I thank you.

I’ll leave you with this…on the bulletin board above my desk I have a piece of paper that says

Gli amici sono la famiglia si sceglie

which means “Friends are the family you choose.”  I have chosen a wonderful family and thank you for choosing me.

I am thankful for (Week 1)

…amazing friends who I am looking forward to seeing on Thursday.

…my puppies who are always happy to see me.

…my sister who I am beyond excited to see this weekend.

…my job and the challenges that I face every week.

…my mom and dad who have helped me so much.

…growing up and learing to be honest with myeself.

…life.

I’ve decided to make this a new Monday feature.  Each Monday I will list a few things for which I am thankful.  If you never comment on any other post, comment on this one.  It’s a positive way to begin the week.

You’re turn to finish the sentence.  What are you thankful for?